I was really devastated but i have to live with it. Since 2004, i started taking valtrex500mg once a day. but when i went back to NY, my ob/gyn said do not take it for a long time. Just take vitamins everyday because these antivirals aren't good for your kidneys and livers. So, i only take it when it outbreaks, 3000mg per day. 2 of 500mg, 3 times a day. and in 2 days it's healed. Now i am married and pregnant. 33 weeks now. 1week ago, i had outbreak again after long time without having outbreak. it was the worst after the primary infection and doc said i had 4-5 ulcers. So, he prescribed me Acyclovir and i am taking it now. I feel very depressed when i have outbreak. I feel guilty, furious and do not want to have it if it is possible but i know it's very much impossible and i have to live with it for the rest of my life. I had no knowlege, i was dumb and didn't use condom. But Herpes can be spread by using condoms where condom can't reached to cover the skin.

Thank god that i have a husband who understands me a lot. I sometimes feel sad because i may give him this disease. He didn't have but i am not sure if he has it now or not. I told him that he will have it sometimes in his lifetime if we are still together. He said it's okay. Now, i have to worry about not passing this to my infant when i give birth and my husband. It's not easy to think and i am very stress out. Herpes is caused by virus and can't be cured. Only can be treated by antiviral medications which reduce the outbreak frequency and duration of outbreak. Even there is no lesion, the virus can be active on the surface of the skin. The early warning symptoms and the symptoms are burning, itching and tingling. So, when you have those mild early warning symptoms, you should avoid skin to skin contact with those areas. No matter how you contracted, you have it and so, only think of how to treat it. Stay healthy and do not let your immune system down because it will attack your body once the immune system is down. Stress and worries can also trigger outbreaking of herpes.

Pls see one of those counseling video and find out more about herpes.Hope this help!